I just got back from dinner with my roommates, and I looked at my phone and I had two missed calls and a voice message.  I jokingly said to my friend, “Wonder who died now..”  I was joking. A little. But I listened to the message and my good friends’ boyfriends’ brother died in a motorcycle accident tonight. First, I was a little shocked because I had forseen it, and then I was disgusted or numb or angry or some other unidentifiable feeling.

I’m from a small town, and I literally know everyone in a 30 mile radius of where I … Continue Reading

I can’t get two songs out of my head and/or life….

Never Looking Back by Matt Costa

Fake Plastic Trees by Radiohead

I need help……

Maybe I need a new song to completely take over my life.

I think I heard correctly this morning on the news that the mother of the octuplets’ house is being foreclosed!!! Sooo….now what? Sounds like we all just inherited 8+ kids to pay for.  I’m not even going to get into how I really feel about this whole octuplet thing because I’m sure you can all guess how I feel about it already.   I don’t care how much this woman loves kids.  We are going full speed towards overpopulation in this country and no one gives a damn.  Wait until we don’t have any water or food, then she can watch all 14 of … Continue Reading

ok ok ok…i had to post this - it’s completely gross, but proves a point. if you want to know, i’ll tell you how. this was on apartmentreviews.net after doing a search on poop backing up in toilets - i’ll tell you if you ask.

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I can’t wait to get out of this hell hole. I have nightmares about where I live. It has rained inside my apertment, two floors up someone left the water running and it backed up into my sink and then the water and sewage spread through half of my apartment and when I called maintenance they … Continue Reading

You may have heard the song ‘When the Stars Go Blue’. If you have, you’ve probably heard it one of two places, either sung by Tim MgCraw, or during season 2 of the tv show One Tree Hill. It’s a beautiful song, and actually i think its perfect. But no one knows it was written and recorded originally by Mr. Ryan Adams (not the guy who did Summer of ‘69, thats Bryan Adams). I was just thinking how Ryan Adams probably lined his pockets with gold from the kickbacks of having other, more successful artists make a hit out of … Continue Reading

tomorrow is valentines day. and for the first time in… well as long as i can remember really, i’m not all that excited. perhaps it is due in part to the overall blah feelings i have had towards life in general lately but i dont really think that is it. i mean its not like i dont have a valentine…. so where does this problem stem from? 

i have decided that i am going to blame my lackluster feelings about everyones favorite hallmark holiday on the VH1 show the “Tool Academy” 

for those of you who have not watched the show i … Continue Reading

I believe this is what the place is called that I was at 2 weeks ago or so.  I had never been to this place located in Mil-town Wisconsin before, but I thought it was pretty crazy weird there.  I was wondering if anyone else had been there before. When I arrived, there were men dressed up in German outfits and animal and Indian outfits, as well.  I was hugged by a large bear in about 2 minutes of entering the building, and I proceeded to laugh for about the entire time that I was there. I felt like I … Continue Reading

It’s been nearly three months since my boss called me in to his office to give me the news that I was getting laid off.   I wasn’t scared then.   I thought I could find something else pretty quickly.  And I did actually start a part-time job (with supposed potential for full-time hours after the first of the year) the very next week.  But soon after the first of the year, I got laid off again.   (I couldn’t make this stuff up)

It sucks not having a full-time job, but I’m trying to make the most of it while  I’m at it.  Some things I’ve … Continue Reading

i hate television. i hate it so much that i can’t get enough of it. i watch it all the time. although, i’m never really watching it. i’m usually just staring at it. i think while i’m watching tv. it’s almost just noise to fill the silence. i just get so antsy and angry when i watch tv. if i’m watching the news i get pissed because there’s so much hate shown. if i watch reality shows, i get pissed because of how many idiots the world possesses. when i watch sitcoms, i normally am not watching because they’re so … Continue Reading

Prince once asked in a song (When Doves Cry) ‘maybe i’m just like my mother..she’s never satisfied’. pearl jam has a song that in the chorus it asks ‘why be satisfied’ (All Night). That’s a good question. Why be satisfied when you could always have or get more? That is a terrible way of thinking in some ways. Being greedy can force you to gamble and make poor choices and you could lose what you already have. I wonder, will I ever be satisfied with anything?
I feel happiness is a relative thing, depending on what you had growing up, … Continue Reading